ouch ouch ouch.

yesterday's dance training was torturing again. bin once again gave us hell. push-ups that never seemed to end. and all that stretching. but uncle taught us a really nice choreo. and in girl's hiphop khai continued her circus choreo. it was all fun and happy until i woke up this morning.

goodness gracious. i feel as though i tore every single muscle in my body. think my muscles not used to trainings like that. every inch i moved on my bed hurt. i woke up and slept and woke up and slept. but just couldn't get out of bed. only managed to i think around 12 noon? i got up and did some stretching to reduce the aches. walk to the toilet and that's when i felt the nagging, numbing ache on my left lower back. my old injury was back. sigh.

i remember how i sobbed in the hospital when the doctor told me i had to stop dancing and rest. that time i was having SYF in school so after that i rested, i think. but now that i want to continue dancing , please, pain, will you go away? if mummy finds out she's gonna ban me from dancing. and that would be the end of me.

and so today i was actually planning to head down to queensway to get some cheap fbts to last me for my camps that're starting this weekend, but even walking around the house exerted enough pressure on my back. sob. so i stayed home the whole first half of the day. later there's still gp training. sigh. hope it's gonna be fine.

mel wanted another day for teaching her choreo and i stupidly suggested saturdays cause i remembered that popping class would be using mph, so we could share. i totally forgot that im gonna be in camp the coming 2 saturdays! and i wanna be in mel's choreo! boohoo. this has been on my mind the whole night, think i can only talk to schizo and see if he can let me out of camp for a few hours. it's getting more and more difficult to balance dance and union. im just glad schizo's in union too, then at least he would understand all my excuses. haha. am i making use of the fact that he's dance president in dance and gp ic in union's fo? haha lalala. i keep putting him in the dilemma. haha sorry schizo!

there're alot of things i wanna do this holiday. i wanna meet up with so many people: randee & ezzat, michelle, clem, pengpeng, nathan. wanted to do that all next week, but why the hell must gp trainings be on evenings. spoiling all my plans. and i cant even meet up with qiangqiang like that too. ugh.

oh anyway something happy. i got back my results and i'm pretty glad with them. though gavin's results keep demoralising me, heck care him la. i worked hard and i deserve a pat! mummy wants to celebrate but then again, i wonder when i would have the time to.

and qiangqiang ah, you also another busy one. sighs. how are we going to celebrate this sunday's occasion mm? (:

missing you on days i don't see you.