yesterday's dance training was torturing again. bin once again gave us hell. push-ups that never seemed to end. and all that stretching. but uncle taught us a really nice choreo. and in girl's hiphop khai continued her circus choreo. it was all fun and happy until i woke up this morning.
goodness gracious. i feel as though i tore every single muscle in my body. think my muscles not used to trainings like that. every inch i moved on my bed hurt. i woke up and slept and woke up and slept. but just couldn't get out of bed. only managed to i think around 12 noon? i got up and did some stretching to reduce the aches. walk to the toilet and that's when i felt the nagging, numbing ache on my left lower back. my old injury was back. sigh.
i remember how i sobbed in the hospital when the doctor told me i had to stop dancing and rest. that time i was having SYF in school so after that i rested, i think. but now that i want to continue dancing , please, pain, will you go away? if mummy finds out she's gonna ban me from dancing. and that would be the end of me.
and so today i was actually planning to head down to queensway to get some cheap fbts to last me for my camps that're starting this weekend, but even walking around the house exerted enough pressure on my back. sob. so i stayed home the whole first half of the day. later there's still gp training. sigh. hope it's gonna be fine.
mel wanted another day for teaching her choreo and i stupidly suggested saturdays cause i remembered that popping class would be using mph, so we could share. i totally forgot that im gonna be in camp the coming 2 saturdays! and i wanna be in mel's choreo! boohoo. this has been on my mind the whole night, think i can only talk to schizo and see if he can let me out of camp for a few hours. it's getting more and more difficult to balance dance and union. im just glad schizo's in union too, then at least he would understand all my excuses. haha. am i making use of the fact that he's dance president in dance and gp ic in union's fo? haha lalala. i keep putting him in the dilemma. haha sorry schizo!
there're alot of things i wanna do this holiday. i wanna meet up with so many people: randee & ezzat, michelle, clem, pengpeng, nathan. wanted to do that all next week, but why the hell must gp trainings be on evenings. spoiling all my plans. and i cant even meet up with qiangqiang like that too. ugh.
oh anyway something happy. i got back my results and i'm pretty glad with them. though gavin's results keep demoralising me, heck care him la. i worked hard and i deserve a pat! mummy wants to celebrate but then again, i wonder when i would have the time to.
and qiangqiang ah, you also another busy one. sighs. how are we going to celebrate this sunday's occasion mm? (:
missing you on days i don't see you.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
that's it?
new updates: i shopped at topshop!
but i went alone. i know i've always preferred shopping alone, but that day felt really really lonely.
"i know i have something to do, but i just can't remember what."
this phrase keeps ringing through my head every now and then. it's like, it's not literally cannot remember, it's more of "i should be having something to do, why don't i?".
actually union's giving us a lot of things to do recently. and probably this period of time is the time i can commit to union the most. be there are still times where i wonder if this is it. I'm looking forward to FO camp, but i still haven found a way to tackle the problem i'd be facing. it's gonna be so awkward.
today i was asked to vote for the next union president. i wanted to vote for him. cause i know he's capable. but looks like recently he's been mia alot, according to what everyone says. he used to tell me he's the kind who would 'gong si fen ming', personal stuff would not affect his work. but looks like he was so wrong. i didn't vote for him in the end. cause he's become less involved in union.
i was thinking today when i spoke to joey, i feel a little guilty sometimes, i guess it's my fault that he's become like that. that he's life is changed.
when i heard the rest talk about him today during evaluation meeting, i can't help looking down, somehow i feel that marcus knows something. and that at the corner of his eye he's shooting at me "it's all your fault gail! we've lost a talent because of you!"
i never thought i would ever be such a big influence in anyone's life.
"The sky keeps rumbling but it never tears" says Gareth, my brother.
who says so. it's been raining like everyday la. i shared my new unbrella with this lady that day when i was shopping alone. from now on, i would make it a point to share my umbrella with anyone on the streets who needs to cross a pathetic street that's unsheltered. because i totally know how it feels to be stuck somewhere when it's pouring.
but of course that's provided i myself remember to bring my umbrella. standard things to bring out wherever i go: wallet, handphone, keys, UMBRELLA.
it's 6.17. qiangqiang's having his paper now. all the best to him!
I've been praying for him really hard these days. just so that God would soften his heart. hope He answers my prayers.
On sunday i suddenly had a mental imagination of apocalypse. it was the end of the world. as what God has said. First person i thought of was qiangqiang. in my mental imagination i was crying to him, telling him all about God. hoping and praying he would change his mind. just cannot imagine that that was actually the last day he could do that. it was a horrible thought. but still i enjoyed myself on Sunday like i always do.
anyway, juggy! if you're reading this, i feel so happy for you! you've found love! wish you and ethel, happy always! ethel's a nice girl, treasure her! (:
and...
i'm missing you real badly. but i got to be patient i know that. jiayou! (:
but i went alone. i know i've always preferred shopping alone, but that day felt really really lonely.
"i know i have something to do, but i just can't remember what."
this phrase keeps ringing through my head every now and then. it's like, it's not literally cannot remember, it's more of "i should be having something to do, why don't i?".
actually union's giving us a lot of things to do recently. and probably this period of time is the time i can commit to union the most. be there are still times where i wonder if this is it. I'm looking forward to FO camp, but i still haven found a way to tackle the problem i'd be facing. it's gonna be so awkward.
today i was asked to vote for the next union president. i wanted to vote for him. cause i know he's capable. but looks like recently he's been mia alot, according to what everyone says. he used to tell me he's the kind who would 'gong si fen ming', personal stuff would not affect his work. but looks like he was so wrong. i didn't vote for him in the end. cause he's become less involved in union.
i was thinking today when i spoke to joey, i feel a little guilty sometimes, i guess it's my fault that he's become like that. that he's life is changed.
when i heard the rest talk about him today during evaluation meeting, i can't help looking down, somehow i feel that marcus knows something. and that at the corner of his eye he's shooting at me "it's all your fault gail! we've lost a talent because of you!"
i never thought i would ever be such a big influence in anyone's life.
"The sky keeps rumbling but it never tears" says Gareth, my brother.
who says so. it's been raining like everyday la. i shared my new unbrella with this lady that day when i was shopping alone. from now on, i would make it a point to share my umbrella with anyone on the streets who needs to cross a pathetic street that's unsheltered. because i totally know how it feels to be stuck somewhere when it's pouring.
but of course that's provided i myself remember to bring my umbrella. standard things to bring out wherever i go: wallet, handphone, keys, UMBRELLA.
it's 6.17. qiangqiang's having his paper now. all the best to him!
I've been praying for him really hard these days. just so that God would soften his heart. hope He answers my prayers.
On sunday i suddenly had a mental imagination of apocalypse. it was the end of the world. as what God has said. First person i thought of was qiangqiang. in my mental imagination i was crying to him, telling him all about God. hoping and praying he would change his mind. just cannot imagine that that was actually the last day he could do that. it was a horrible thought. but still i enjoyed myself on Sunday like i always do.
anyway, juggy! if you're reading this, i feel so happy for you! you've found love! wish you and ethel, happy always! ethel's a nice girl, treasure her! (:
and...
i'm missing you real badly. but i got to be patient i know that. jiayou! (:
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