dad & mom.

hello my not so but pretty dead blog, i'm here to revive you again.

guess what, i actually typed a pretty long post but i accidentally posted on sdz's blog instead, so i quickly deleted it and now it's gone. so i guess i just gotta type it all again down here. how smart.

i had some difficulties trying to log in to post in blogger. i guess it's probably due to my super long password. my blogger password's pretty long. i always have to type it t least thrice cause i always type it wrongly the first 2 times. on days i have not so sparstic typing skills then maybe can on the second time. haha. whenever i type my password in front of people they'd go, 'wa, your password so long ah.' dono leh, i just have to have a long password, but yet it's easy to remember for me. maybe im beginning to build mistrust and suspicion, okay think i've been studying too much. haha.

wierd. i was studying on cardiovascular diseases when i heard about micheal jackson's death. cardiarc arrest. though it's not in my textbook i did go and google it. haha who knows it might come out in friday's paper. ugh, come to think of friday's paper i've yet to revise for it. nothing went into my brain at all when i was studying! 'the brain has unlimited capacity.', i keep telling myself.

i was picnicing with clem today when i saw a beautiful sight. it was this baby trying to walk on the sand. it was juggling on his two cute feet, tripping slightly towards his family on the fine sand. mummy was watching over him from afar. it was so uber duper adorable. i couldn't really see the gender from afar but i'd just presume he's a boy anyway. then suddenly, daddy picked him up and tossed him in the air! clem and i stared blanky for a few seconds and then all the 'walao eh..', 'wad the...', 'wa...' came. it's just shocking to me how daddy tossed him in the sky and catched him, tossed him around his own body and still laughing all so confidently. well, i was pretty shocked. but clem told me it's normal for a daddy to do that cause the babies like it. then i said, 'mummies won't do that.'

it's true isn't it? you don't really see mummies tossing their babies in the air do confidently and assuredly do you? but daddies do. to babies, daddies are always the more fun one. at least when i was a baby that's what i thought. they'd laugh and play with them, bring them out to play and swim and do stuns. but mummies won't. mummies are just too anxious and paranoid to risk their babies' safety. not that daddies don't care. probably they just wanna see their babies laugh and love them. well, at least i know i won't toss my baby in the air when i do have a baby. haha.

everyday i learn something new. not bad eh. but it's getting late, i'd end here. i'm suppose to help mum clean up the construction site-like house tmr, finally the renovation of my new bathroom is done! no more construction works and i can find sleep late without getting woken up by the drillings! i'm tired, and so is that daniel who has been bullying me for the past hour! (i know you're reading this! hahahaha.)
go sleep la! (:



id be buying my new cap tmr. (:

i feel till i don't.

thanks to the people around me, i'm back up again.

i don't feel like psoting emo stuff but i can't help it. haha. it's like whenever i feel like posting it's actually the times when i feel emo. my blog is so screwed. sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads this stuff? haha. actually there are some who care out there. during marina barrage performance i was pretty shocked when jon msged me about my sad posts and asked me to cheer up. thanks jon.


i was busy with marina barrage performance. didn't study much last week.
i need to study for two papers for next week.
next week is the week school reopens.
i'm having hospice drama rehearsal. but we're not really doing much.
drama performance somewhere in august.
gonna have many more rehearsals when school reopens.
i'm having dance committee meeting today.
havent planned what i wanna tell the comm. though i know there are lots to talk.
i've been thinking about what tbg is gonna be like this sunday. and who i'd be going there with.
i suddenly miss shermain.
i'm wondering why clem isn't repying my msg.
i havent read my bible today.
i'm feeling cold.



i've been analyzing my emotions constantly these days. something i know someone won't do. something i dont know if i should be doing. but if i don't i'd feel empty. and very messy. i feel like eating fish and chips now. haha.



someone just taught me some stuff about love.
'love is suffering. love is patient. love is sacrifice.'
i realise i havent really been knowing how to love. do we all?
so easy to talk about, so easy to think about, so hard to do it.

you know i've been feeling quite heavy. even though i think i lost weight. but heavy as in, there's so many things to carry on my shoulders. i'm not that tired. but i've been really lazy to carry these stuff. and dragging it around. i haven't felt light for a very long time. there're so many datelines to meet. i wonder if time is almost up for me now. probably that's my worry. time. time will tell many many things.

God will show it through time. all the decisions i make and made. God will tell me through time. if it's right.