that's it?

new updates: i shopped at topshop!

but i went alone. i know i've always preferred shopping alone, but that day felt really really lonely.

"i know i have something to do, but i just can't remember what."

this phrase keeps ringing through my head every now and then. it's like, it's not literally cannot remember, it's more of "i should be having something to do, why don't i?".

actually union's giving us a lot of things to do recently. and probably this period of time is the time i can commit to union the most. be there are still times where i wonder if this is it. I'm looking forward to FO camp, but i still haven found a way to tackle the problem i'd be facing. it's gonna be so awkward.

today i was asked to vote for the next union president. i wanted to vote for him. cause i know he's capable. but looks like recently he's been mia alot, according to what everyone says. he used to tell me he's the kind who would 'gong si fen ming', personal stuff would not affect his work. but looks like he was so wrong. i didn't vote for him in the end. cause he's become less involved in union.

i was thinking today when i spoke to joey, i feel a little guilty sometimes, i guess it's my fault that he's become like that. that he's life is changed.

when i heard the rest talk about him today during evaluation meeting, i can't help looking down, somehow i feel that marcus knows something. and that at the corner of his eye he's shooting at me "it's all your fault gail! we've lost a talent because of you!"

i never thought i would ever be such a big influence in anyone's life.


"The sky keeps rumbling but it never tears" says Gareth, my brother.

who says so. it's been raining like everyday la. i shared my new unbrella with this lady that day when i was shopping alone. from now on, i would make it a point to share my umbrella with anyone on the streets who needs to cross a pathetic street that's unsheltered. because i totally know how it feels to be stuck somewhere when it's pouring.

but of course that's provided i myself remember to bring my umbrella. standard things to bring out wherever i go: wallet, handphone, keys, UMBRELLA.

it's 6.17. qiangqiang's having his paper now. all the best to him!

I've been praying for him really hard these days. just so that God would soften his heart. hope He answers my prayers.
On sunday i suddenly had a mental imagination of apocalypse. it was the end of the world. as what God has said. First person i thought of was qiangqiang. in my mental imagination i was crying to him, telling him all about God. hoping and praying he would change his mind. just cannot imagine that that was actually the last day he could do that. it was a horrible thought. but still i enjoyed myself on Sunday like i always do.


anyway, juggy! if you're reading this, i feel so happy for you! you've found love! wish you and ethel, happy always! ethel's a nice girl, treasure her! (:




and...
i'm missing you real badly. but i got to be patient i know that. jiayou! (: